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[Dec. 6th, 2009|02:53 pm] |
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"People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost " ~H. Jackson Browne |
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| HAPPY! |
[Nov. 28th, 2009|01:33 am] |
What's the use of worrying?
It never was worth while,
So pack up your troubles in your old bag,
And smile, smile, smile.
If only everyday can be like ytd, everything would be great seriously (:
I am very motivated although i feel that my strength is very weak. Let get this done, in the most perfect way!
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| One more month to go and here come 2010. |
[Nov. 22nd, 2009|05:35 pm] |
End of the year kidda make me reminisce about the past again.
I wouldn't help but laugh at myself for being so naive one year ago (:
However, the truth is that i have never regret making an effort to make thing work out then. It's really okay as thing have developed to this state. Perhaps, this is the best outcome that we can think of and all we can do is to accept reality. "Just because something good ends doesn't mean something better won't begin."
Yes, this is true. Life goes on, earth won't stop moving just without the absence of one. There is also no point holding onto something that left long time ago, cus sooner or later you'll realize something are just not meant to be in the first place.
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| Boycott love. |
[Nov. 21st, 2009|01:42 am] |
Okay, I am being random here again.
Just taking a break away from doing maya for 4 hours already.
So tiring, my whole body is aching from pain already.
4 hours, and I am not being very productive. This is bad. I am always expecting my work to be totally perfect despite knowing that i can't make it to the perfection stage. I should change this bad habit of mine, seriously. I am really not good at 3d at all. How am i gonna survive through this FYP? Never mind, it's okay. I shall try to do it within my ability. The only way to do well, is to love what you are doing. And, I am gonna try loving 3d for now until i complete my fyp. This way work pretty well for me for last fyp.
Back to my topic.
I am not be that weak, but still not strong enough to stop my own tears from falling down.
I may look stupid, but you might not know i am too smart to be stupid.
I have a heart made of metal, too hard to be break apart.
What is love when there exist a word call heart-broken?
Don't get me wrong. I am not feeling sad or what. I am too busy to be getting emotional these few days. I am just making full use of my blogging time to give myself a break from project.
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| I gonna be real focused now. |
[Nov. 20th, 2009|07:54 pm] |
If you happened to read this post of mine, I am really gonna be real focused in doing my fyp starting from this day onwards. I shall work really hard now, and enjoyed myself after next month. After that, will be a non-stopping period again to my design life till i succeed and be the best of what i can become what i wanted to be (:
I realised dream is after all the most secure insurance in life. Where else can you find something that will give you a strong sense of achievement and happiness after doing what you enjoy doing. Let work hard from now onwards okay! |
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| It's such a wonderful day |
[Nov. 15th, 2009|11:31 pm] |
It is such a wonderful day when you start your day with a smile..
and end it with a smile going to bed (:
Everything seem good, every word sound nice, weather is cool even when it's raining!!!!
Hey people, if you don't have your smile on your face, I can give it to you.
AND, I hope my smile won't just stop here =D |
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| Maybe, i am still not trying hard enough. |
[Nov. 12th, 2009|09:19 pm] |
If anyone happen to realise that i posted entries very frequently nowadays. This can mean that, I have a lot in mind. Please, when I say a lot, i really mean a lot. I am just not quite in the right mind these few weeks. My life, is really in a total mess. I am busy, real busy with my life that i don't even have enough time to rest. But, I am not been very productive. I find myself wasting my time, dwelling on unwanted thoughts that shouldn't be on my mind. I am bored, very bored that i wish i can just find anyone who can accompanied me while i spend my time telling about my life. I am very troubled, seriously troubled that i wish i can just close my eyes and wandered off to a place where there are no restriction and freedom are all around for me to enjoy. I am very confused, damn confused about my feelings which i am trying so real hard to hide it and had no intention of admitting the truth. I am missing someone, but who is that someone that even me, myself have no idea of. I am.. AM really deadbeat of how thing always turn out this way. Can there be any solutions to all my problems?
Can i have one source of motivation to push me forward. Just a push, will do. I AM TIRED ALREADY. But, there are still load of works waiting for me to complete it all.
Perhaps, me myself is the cause of all my troubles.
I am always having high expectation of myself. Maybe, I shouldn't expect anything in the first place. Then, life would have been better (:
If that is the case, maybe god shouldn't have let me own it in the first place, let me hold those naive thoughts and be greedy. |
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| Writer's Block: Opposites attract (sometimes) |
[Nov. 9th, 2009|02:55 pm] |
I am so bored in class now. Let's me try to answer this question to kill time.
This topic is pretty subjective, i guess. I might be thinking this way but that's does mean that the other party feel the same as what i do. This is very common. Every single of us, came from different parts of the world with different backgrounds and different groups of friends, different lifestyle, thoughts and experiences. You can't expect people to change their lifestyle to suit yours right? So, this word "compromise" came into great use. We need to compromise each and another habits and learn to accept the way they are. This is also part of what communication is about.
Oh gosh. I am starting to drift further away from the topic again.
Yes, I found myself getting attracted to people that share similar interests as me, but not to a great extent. Religious background and life experience, doesn't matter. I will only find it bored if the other party share the same life experience as me. What can we share about if we have the same experience? That's would be bored, really. For me, i think communication is all about sharing life experience, learning to share each other problems and also talk about interests that we have.
I think, having the same interest somehow do affect a successful relationship. Let's say what is the first thing that sparks off a conversation. It is..interest! By having some common interest no neccessary everything have to be the same do helps to ensure a successful relationship.
What do you people think? Do share with me your thoughts :D
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[Nov. 7th, 2009|04:38 pm] |
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" I prefer to remain silent. let time tell the truth."
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| Love, is when i look at you. |
[Nov. 7th, 2009|12:53 am] |
I am having a long chat with PJ bestie, right now. I know she is really sad and moody these days.There is only one thing that will turn us girls, into silly fool instantly. That is none other than the taboo word, LOVE. I seriously hope that she will get the happiness that she wanted all along. Cus, she is really the best girl on earth that you can ever find. So, i am hoping very much that she will find a guy that love and understand her very well. I really have no doubt for that.
Love, is meant to be a taboo to me. Something that should not be easily touch. Once been touched, it will tear and hurt easily. This is why i prefer to keep it close to my heart, a place where no one know.
I have always been pondering above this issue recently. What is true love? Does it exist in the first place at all? Nowadays people, television have been promoting the noble of love. However, have it ever cross your mind that maybe love doesn't exist in the first place before. The love, i am talking about here is the mutual feelings between a boy and a girl. If u were to ask me this question, i will tell you that even between family members, love may be abused and not show in the properly way. Of course, this definitely will not happen in my family. Relationship, is just like a story following the typical storyline, starting with the start, climax and finally the end. It's does not really sound as sweet as what you and i thought. There is a old saying that say, the person that you love the most might not turn out to be the one that will stay with you for a lifetime. This is so true even for my mum. Once, you lost the chance of being with the one that you thought will be the only one for you. You tend to lose it forever. So, cherish the one that will always be with you.
I may sound strange for me to have this mindset. People tend to change their feelings very easily from time to time. A day, or even just one minutes can change the mindset of a person completely. I used to be very naive in the past but definitely not now anymore. Why do we need to be so serious right? Seriousness might not be meant to exist in this world.
I still believe in love after all despite all these craps that the world is giving us. The only thing that changes me. is my mindset toward love. I don't need someone who have everything in the world. Just someone who like me for who I am and of course someone who is able to love my family the way he loved me.
I built walls for the sake of finding someone to break it.
I donnoe what i am thinking right now. I am contradicting my thoughts. It's just get messier every time i try to sort it out. So, why don't i just leave it the way it is.
I AM VERY FINE!! (:
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[Nov. 6th, 2009|03:44 pm] |
I am just so bored and sleepy right now. That, I can even fall sleep in the school library.This is seriously unhealthy. How can I be so tired nowadays? Must be cus of daily routine. I need to slowly adjust my diet and sleeping time back to normal again. One thing that i realised after i return from my vietnam trip is that, I stop taking coffee.
CAN ANYONE BELIEVE IN THIS?
When I had been addicted to coffee ever since i am 6 years old. How can this be happening?
Enough say of this, will be having my first UT later.
hope i can do well ya (:
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| Seriously hate this. |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|04:47 pm] |
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I AM SERIOUSLY NOT IN THE RIGHT MIND TODAY. AND, I HATE IT! |
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[Oct. 30th, 2009|11:19 pm] |
I don't know why i tend to lose my mood of writing my blog very easier. One moment, I had the sudden urge to post entry on my blog and the next minute i start to get lazy of doing that. So, that explained why my entries are getting lesser and lesser nowadays. Maybe, I have already get sick of writing online journals. Or peharps, my personal diary is still the best afterall. I am sad to say that, i have been neglecting my personal diary for a very long while too. This suddenly remind me of someone's words. When you grow up and start to get real busy with your life, you won't have the chance or even the mood to write in your diary again. This is really true.
Life, what is life really? what can we expect from life is really up to us to choose. Our life, is made up of many big and small decisions that we make along the way. What I have to say is that life is never easy but we can make it easy depending on the kind of thinking and thoughts that we have.
My life, is still busy and real busy.
What filled up of it, are school, fyp, violin, work, family and social life. The biggest problem that is with me, is that i am really bad at time management. I cant plan my time for doing my works well. I know this is a serious problem and i should improve at it. Something that worries me a lot, is what gonna happen after graduation. What field should i work in? Actually, i really want to continuce studying in the uni after poly. However, i know my grade can't make to the local uni and that even if i want to further my studies overseas. It's not easy as well. The best path that i can choose now, is only working. Truthly speaking, i know my mum hope very much for me to go work straight after my poly. So that, I can also help in sharing the burden of my family expenses. Things for me now, is really different from that in the past when the economy is at least bright and good. Haiz, i won't complaint and i shouldn't also. Working, isn't a bad choice afterall. At least, I will be able to gain lot of working experiences and not only that changes my perspective of life. This is gonna be challenging, i know. Its something that is unavoidable and i should learn to face it with courage. I know it is going to be hard but that doesn't stop me from improving myself.
I know that i am letting myself and everyone who think well of me down by saying that i have decided to give up designing, my only dream just for the time being. I need more time to figure out what else life have in store for me.
Peharp beside studies and work, I shouldn't think of other unneccessary stuffs that will hinder my life. Right now, I should just concentrate on doing well on the thing that I should be doing. But, i find it really hard sometimes.
Okay, anyway fyp is not progressing that smoothly. I should buck up more and improve my speed of doing works. Dear team mates, shall we work hard this time to make our project a success one?
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[Oct. 28th, 2009|01:36 am] |
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I seriously don't know whether i am doing the right thing this time again.
I just hate to get myself into this stupid mess since the day I realized everything is just a illusion that does not belong to me at all. Since then, I have lose truth in fairytale, which doesn't exist in the first place at all. Hence, I have learnt my mistake and promised myself never to fall into the pit that easier again.
This feeling totally sucks to the core.
Maybe, i shouldn't take thing so seriously.
Or perhaps, I am still holding on to some hope and i hope its will be different this time round (:
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| Writer's Block: I'm sorry |
[Oct. 21st, 2009|11:05 pm] |
Found this question in live journal, which i find it quite interesting. Hence, decided to try answering this question.
Without doubt, i can answer the first question.
There is indeed someone from my past who I will tell the 3 holy words to, only him.
Someone, who doesn't believe in me.
I am sorry, will be to myself.
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| I wish i can find my talent within myself. |
[Jul. 31st, 2009|11:14 pm] |
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I stand in the middle of the crowd, thinking about my dream and you.
How i wish i have the strength to believe in myself.
if everything can be simplified, the world would be a better one.
I am searching aimlessly for my talent. It make me wonder does the talent of mine exist at all in the first place.
I have always thought that my talent is design, only design and nothing else. But I guess i am wrong to think in this way. Is design really my talent that is born naturally in me. What can be my talent, beside design? I wanted to do well at it. I want to be a designer, only designer and nothing else i am interested in.
Everyone have their own talents. But, where is mine? I need my dreams in order to live on this complicated world. Without dream, I am nothing. Thing are getting harder and i find it real hard for me to cope with everything in my life. It is in a total mess and all the stuffs that I am learning isn't getting me any far. I hope thing can just be as simple as possible.
Work, is driving me crazy '_'
I don't think i can continuce at the same place anymore. I am so sick of the place already
I know i am been very confusing with my journal. I have a lot of thing on mind, just would not make up my mind to decide on which to write first and so everything is all in different part, pardon me.
how are you getting on with life? I hope you are still trying as hard as the very first day I met you (: |
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| if life can be easier. |
[Jul. 29th, 2009|07:56 pm] |
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Ended my FYP today the final presentation.
don't ask me the outcome. for I am really tired repeating it all the time.
Not gonna talk about fyp anymore, wanna enjoy life for a while before the next proj start again.
I thought after this fyp, i can finally rest for a few days. But something unexpected cropped up again. This is something which I have to make a decision, no avoidance is allowed. Why is life getting so hard days by days? My energy level is depleting and increasing all this while. But then, I know in my heart. That no any amount of obstacles will break me down anymore. Cus, I have learnt something useful from this fyp. A lesson learnt on becoming more determined and not giving up till the very end. I got myself in this big mess, and have managed to gain something useful out of it. So no matter how tough the road ahead may be, I will stand strong and emerge from the difficulties.
I told the accessors that I am so damn proud of myself to be able to create a php website. Although, there is some problem existing here and there. But this is really a great accomplishment for me since i was once a dumb dumb in php.
On the lighter note, I am happy that all my receational activities can continuce on again. I want to learn a lot of thing that will be useful to me as a future designer. I want to do thing the way I want it to be. I want, i want to be free..... |
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